Wednesday, November 12, 2014

babysitting with batman

Here's a sonnet I wrote last year for my creative writing class! It was an amazing experience, although I think I've forgotten more than half of the words and types of poems I learned... My memory is an unfortunate thing and I need to exercise it more. Even my stamina for reading is horrendous. It's a struggle just attempting to read a page long excerpt. 

Alright, I'm ranting now... I just promise to try to write more and that means more independent work! But here's this lovely sonnet I'm very proud of for now (fun fact: it's based on an actual experience)...

Batman shouts for Robin on the TV,
And the boy stares. His mouth opens widely,          
Allowing his ripe gum to slowly
Ooze out, with his eyes glued to the movie. 

There goes the gum, sliming its way down    
The kiddie slide. But, it moves too fast.
Before I can even try to grasp
Where the gum will stick and be found.

I lay at the bottom of the slide,
With my hair to cushion the fall of
The sticky gum. It lies above,
But stuck to my head, easy to find.

My sister brings peanut butter to
Take out the gum. I hope I make it through.

I tried really hard to make a visual to accompany this poem, but it didn't come out very well... It's actually upsetting that everything needs assistance from an image in order to be more compelling. This may be an ironic thing for me to say (being an artist with a room filled with photographs of the most mediocre things, such as a twinkie... several twinkie pictures actually), but sometimes words need to speak for themselves. Somethings are better left to the imagination (or maybe I'm just saying this, because I failed horribly at making a visual for this... who knows?). 

1963

It’s a mystery why you find random patches of perfectly smooth concrete slab. I could feel my wheels smiling as they rolled across them. They only started gritting their teeth once back onto the ridged, aged concrete. I had to drop my apple on the ridged, aged concrete.
            It bounced twice and I cringed at the thought of the bruised craters I’d find once I retrieved it back. Yet, my apple was still nicely shaped with no soft spots. There were only tiny droplets.
The texturized concrete pierced minuscule holes into my apple and sugary crystal beads oozed out. I initially thought they were only water droplets picked up by the dew on the ground, but they tasted so sweet.

That was just some dialogue I came up with, inspired by an actual event that just happened a few moments ago! Always love inspirations made by food. 

Anyway, here are some polaroids I have taken thus far! I've used many different types of scanners (this was on the span of a couple of weeks), so the quality will vary... Some of my favorite polaroids got edited on photoshop, so they found a place here as well.


 All shot on a Polaroid Land Model 100.

Sunday, November 9, 2014

destroy apathy


Above is a collection of art (excuse the shitty iPhone quality of some) I've done since 2013... Each has their own story and there are definitely more pieces, but I feel inadequate. Although I'm the closest I've ever been to self-acceptance, life up to 2012 was considerably stressful and certain events still affect my living now. I found physical forms of anxiety release to be most effective, but I almost lost my artistic roots. Not that surfing, rock climbing and running aren't spiritually artistic, but I'm nostalgic for the visual arts. 
Sometimes the arts can be stressful, but I've realized it's smilier stress that I get from running. My body feels strong, but my mind is in a constant argument to either stop or not (usually the result of boredom). It's the same continuous pain I get engaging in art, but once I finish I feel the release of endorphins. When it's really good, I can almost smell it off of me. I've described the scent like my Daisy Marc Jacobs perfume (which is why it's the only perfume I ever wear). It's almost like PTSD and I simply continue to fight with the pain to get that magnificent end result and I can scream POWER in my head. The pain never adds up to the real negative things in my life and the accomplishments only bring me closer to self-satisfaction. 
I want to destroy apathy and self-destruction by doing all the things I've ever wanted to learn to do and improve upon the things I already know how to do. I promise to art more (a friend once used "art" as a verb and I think everyone else should too). 
As for keeping up with this blog? I'm not sure I can stay committed... but once a year or more I may have something up! It's kind of a narcissistic practice and I don't like the idea of being cooped up inside, on my laptop for so long. I don't mean it in a bad way... it's just that we live in a narcissistic society now with social networks and other sites that make it so easy for us to become obsessive with our image and how others perceive us. I part take in it too! I just don't feel the need to make sure this place is up to date. However, it is a free space where only I can share things and edit things. Everything here is me.

Monday, August 1, 2011

catching dreams



Couldn't sleep lately so I began working on this dreamcatcher!

I'll open an Etsy store soon hopefully!

Monday, July 25, 2011

my favorite corner

Here's one of my favorite corners in my room.


Butterflies - Zoo in Shanghai, China
Shell Ship - Street vendor in Newport, RI
Bone - On the shore of Matunuck Beach at South Kingstown, RI 
Rape Whistle - Forever 21
Rings - Spain and thrift store
Puzzle Piece Vase - Handmade by me


This vase was one of my greatest accomplishments freshman year, 2010.
I hope I'll get more good pieces out of my art courses and free time.

tomtom jewelry


In love with this collection by TOMTOM!